Surrender Into Awakening – Change is the Catalyst

How many times have I thought:  this isn’t the way I planned for this happen?  More times than I can count.  How many times did I resist an event or situation because it wasn’t  going the way I wanted it to go?  More times than I can calculate.  Call it a confession if you will, but the truth is I am a rebel when it comes to change:  I only like the changes I like, and the rest I refuse and refute as adamantly as a toddler balks at soggy spinach.

Of course, that doesn’t stop change.  Change happens.  Like the movement of water,  always flowing to fill space, change is irrepressible.  It may be possible to hold change at bay for awhile, but the pressure will build until the dam bursts and change breaks through… to evoke new, a different configurations to explore.

That’s what change is.  It doesn’t care if it’s what we expect or if it’s what we desire.  Change lives by different rules than that.

There is a current philosophy, called the law of attraction, that claims change can be influenced by the quality of the feelings and thoughts we project… that we can shape change in the same way an observer seems to shape light frequencies into waves or particles based on perceptual bias.  Physics has proven this to be true in regard to light.  However, whether or not this law of physics applies to the phenomenon of change is not proven.  Indeed, the majority of anecdotal evidence infers that change, in itself, is equally susceptible to luck as it is to “deliberate creation.”  In other words, change — like light — simply is.  The perceptual bias of a good or bad change is in the observation of the change at hand just as the determination of whether light is a particle or a wave depends upon the subjective perspective of the observer.

Still, those — like me — who want some control over change and its impact on life are willing to make the deductive leap and focus on controlling the quality of thinking and feeling to master change.  I should say “was.”  Because I have changed.

I have come to the realization that the true power of my thoughts and feelings is in my response to change.  Rather than attempting to control the changes that come into my experience, instead I focus now on sustaining an attitude that welcomes all change as an opportunity.

Letting go of a need to control is a big change for me.  Understanding that surrender into the momentum of change is its own form of empowerment is a learning that opens a new vista of possibility.  This insight came a few weeks ago in the moment I realized I had no control over how Fancy Free was reacting as I sat in the saddle on her back (see: Abadiania, Here I Come) and understood surrender.

Surrender, from the perceptual bias that all change serves my evolution into the awakening of All I Am, is a profound and visceral experience of faith.  It happened in the briefest moment as my body traveled through air, between saddle and ground. I knew change was in action, and my opportunity for awakening lived in how I perceived and responded to the changes.

Yes, I am changed.  And I am changing.  The process of releasing the desire/need to control situations and circumstances shows up for me in almost every irritated or frustrated moment I experience.  Whether it is someone else’s behavior I want to influence or some circumstance I think I should shape or a particular goal I intend to realize…  the opportunity is to surrender control and let love awaken further and deeper within. This is opportunity to claim where my true power is.

Surrender into awakening.  Give thanks to change, the catalyst.

Thank you.  I love you.

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