BLAU_N~1I found her in the closet.  Wedged back into the corner, knees pulled against her chest, she hid her eyes behind small hands.  Hoping, perhaps, that I would not see her if she could not see me.  It was an old closet–dusty and filled with long forgotten things stored for long forgotten reasons.

There she was.

I clambered over and around boxes to get to her.  I squeezed into the small space beside her and gathered her into my arms, holding her head close to my beating heart.  “I found you,” I whispered.

“I think my heart is broken,” she mumbled into my sweater, “It hurts.”

I rocked her gently.  “It’s ok,” I soothed, “I found you.  I’m here.  It’s ok.”

For a timeless long time, we sat together rocking.  Then, she turned her big, sad eyes to mine, “Am I safe now?”

And I answered, “We’ll stay here–together–until you know you are.”


Where does your vulnerable, small self hide?  Have you searched yet?  Continue reading “Found–Awakening”

This Awakening Project… This Little Light of Mine

awakening, meditation, lightTulsa, Oklahoma is where I was born and raised, and — back in those days — every summer brought evangelical tent Revivals to town.  My parents were not only ‘not religious’ people, they were non religious Jewish people.  They were also open-minded liberals, though, so if I wanted to go with neighbors to the Revivals, they let me.  And I did.  I didn’t understand the premise of sermons or much of what was said, but  I loved the passionate singing and dancing and bursts of “Hallelujahs!” (though I shouted ‘hallelulu’ :P)  My two favorite songs from those days are still two of my favorite songs:  This Little Light of Mine, I’m Going To Let It Shine and Amazing Grace (I once was lost and now am found.  Was bound and now am free.)

Back then, while I loved singing the songs, I didn’t understand the meaning of those lyrics.  Not like I do, today.  First, I had to live through some “lost” times.  I had to experience my light “hidden” and feel my way through darkness. Continue reading “This Awakening Project… This Little Light of Mine”

Awakening From The Dream… Which One?

awakening from the dreamIt’s confusing sometimes — this awakening process.  The term means…  what?  Which part of my life is asleep?  I know.  I’m one of the many who bandy the term like I know of what I speak.

And sometimes I do.  Sometimes, it’s clear to me that a fresh insight just opened my mind into an understanding that shifts the paradigm of my beliefs.  It happened when I went to visit John of God for the first time in February of 2011 (see John of God – The Process Continues); within months the insights I gleaned from the experience evoked life-altering changes.  Clearly, I “awakened” through the experience to patterns within myself that were functioning on “sleep-walking cycles”. I asked myself: Why was I drifting through choices and patterns of behavior that were unconscious?  Was there any kind of benefit other than avoiding change?  Continue reading “Awakening From The Dream… Which One?”

Nothing Is Different And Everything Is Changed – Awakening

awakening, meditation“Nothing is different, and everything is changed.”  It’s a line from A Paul Simon song.  And every time I hear it, the thought resonates through me like Truth.

The anticipation for BIG changes that will alter the course of civilization runs high these days.  As I read the articles — both scientific and metaphysical — about the state of flux our world and environment is on the brink of experiencing, I wonder if we might be missing subtleties of what awakening is.

I recall the year 1999.  Wayyyyy back then, it was the 2K electronic failure that surged in the news as the event that would bring our world into a new order as we grappled with the loss of a computer-run systems.  Remember that?  And then…nothing happened.  Life went on with a chagrined chuckle. Continue reading “Nothing Is Different And Everything Is Changed – Awakening”

Surrender Into Awakening – Change is the Catalyst

awakening, surrender, law of attractionHow many times have I thought:  this isn’t the way I planned for this happen?  More times than I can count.  How many times did I resist an event or situation because it wasn’t  going the way I wanted it to go?  More times than I can calculate.  Call it a confession if you will, but the truth is I am a rebel when it comes to change:  I only like the changes I like, and the rest I refuse and refute as adamantly as a toddler balks at soggy spinach.

Of course, that doesn’t stop change.  Change happens.  Like the movement of water,  always flowing to fill space, change is irrepressible.  It may be possible to hold change at bay for awhile, but the pressure will build until the dam bursts and change breaks through… to evoke new, a different configurations to explore.

That’s what change is.  It doesn’t care if it’s what we expect or if it’s what we desire. Continue reading “Surrender Into Awakening – Change is the Catalyst”

Welcome Change – It’s How Life Works

awakening, change, how life worksOne way or another, change happens.  Change, as some philosophers say, is the only constant  I don’t know about you… but with 59 years on the planet, I’m still coming to terms with this.

Let go and let God.  Easy for someone else to say about my Life.  I’m the one with the vested interest, and the uncertainty that — by the very nature of change has to accompany it — tends to make me a little nervous.  OK, nervous is a euphemism.  Anxious.  Change makes me anxious.  There I said it. The changes I like are the changes in which I am control.  Like changing what I eat for breakfast.  That’s a change I can embrace easily because the “unknown” factors are manageable to the part of my mind that craves predictability.

However, evolution requires change.  Continue reading “Welcome Change – It’s How Life Works”

Letting Go With Love – Awakening

hooponopono, awakening, law of attractionMy new mantra – letting go with love.  Awakening through letting go.

Letting go isn’t new.  One way or another, we are in the process of letting go of something all the time, I think.  Whether it is a physical transition through age or an emotional release associated to a change or finding a way to evolve a belief toward more fulfillment, letting go of “what was” has been a precursor to the new state of Being from the moment we left the womb.  I’ve known that for a long time.

What I didn’t know… what is new to me in realizing how letting go supports awakening consciousness… is that releasing 100% is the key to allowing the new paradigm to shift into being. Continue reading “Letting Go With Love – Awakening”

Make It Right, Then Make It Better – Awakening

ho'oponopono, awakening, law of attractionHo’oponopono means “to make right” in the language of Polynesia.  To make right means to clear the attachments that hold us in hard feelings and harsh judgements – to bring our focus into the “field beyond right and wrong” as Rumi says.  It is one process among many for opening the heart and mind to the Soul’s presence; the flow of love and authentic kindness to and through us.

In my Life, the desire to find a way through these sticky energetic entanglements into the clear field of connected Love is a driving force.  Both personally and professionally, all of my experience tracks back to this intention – to embody the ability within myself and to teach the power of “making it right” with others.  Over the years, I’ve studied and practiced and shared numerous techniques: self reflection and analysis, meditation, ho’oponopono, Law of Attraction, Course in Miracles, Shamanic principles and practices, prayer, making wishes… and on and on.  Always with the singular intention of alignment with a state of well-being and Grace.

All of these techniques and philosophies work. Continue reading “Make It Right, Then Make It Better – Awakening”

Nature – The Infallible Teacher

Nature, learning, teacher, law of attractionLearning is the skill with which we are born.  From the moment (and perhaps even before) of first consciousness, we are gathering and integrating information.  Early on, our minds begin to formulate questions and seek answers.  It is a continual process, from figuring out how to take that first breath and throughout every experience of life.  And so, by association, do we have teachers all throughout our lives.  Whether by default or intention, there is always someone or some experience adding to the information we integrate to evolve.

Think about this:  In whatever circumstance we find ourselves engaging or whomever we find ourselves associating, the type of teacher/teaching  is defined. Continue reading “Nature – The Infallible Teacher”

Free to Feel – Where the Power of Law of Attraction Lives

law of attractionIt can seem overwhelming sometimes – the obligations and commitments of Life. 

We take them on one at a time, each one a seeming necessity in the pattern of living successfully in our communities and relationships.  Some appear as investments in our success – school loans, car loans, health insurance.  Some give us a sense of stability and connection – family, friends, partners.  Each commitment and obligation serves to create a framework upon which our choices hang.  These structures come to define us and the pattern of our lives…

Until we want something that doesn’t fit. Continue reading “Free to Feel – Where the Power of Law of Attraction Lives”