In December 1983, I was in a high speed/head on automobile collision that changed my Life to such an extent that I didn’t know what or how or who I would be after I recovered; people who knew me before the accident thought I must be a Walk-In (a popular concept back then). As I healed from the head injury and came to terms with type 1 Diabetes that emerged as a result of the accident… as I floated in the space between what was and what was becoming, I wrote this poem:
When the bottom dropped out,
I was scared.
Silly me.
For did these feet grow wings.
That was 25 years ago, and the story of how my Life realigned from there is a saga, bringing me wisdom and success and heartfelt connections and adventure and financial ease and horses and many more blessings than time allows me to list on this page. Make no mistake – there was contrast and uncertainty in the process; but more than that, there was an awakening into understanding of how Life Works. Mine is a magical/mystical tale filled with the small and large miracles of a Benevolent Universe conspiring to my wellbeing. For those who know what my childhood was like, and years I spent as a streetkid, it was like a fairy tale with a happily ever after ending.
Ah, but we know that there is no end – evolution inspires change. And I am evolving. Experiences of the past few months bring to me that crescendo recalibration again. Happily, this time nothing so dramatic (or traumatic) as that winter of 83; but the reconfiguration of who I am emerging as All I Am feels similiarly dis-orienting.
Perhaps it started while meditating in Macchu Picchu on the Fall Equinox of 2008. I know I felt “something” happen when I swam and danced with so many sea turtles I couldn’t count all of them in the Galapagos Islands. And, clearly, the energies in the Vortex spots of Sedona enhanced some shift already happening. Some might include the affects of the economic downturn and how it’s impacted all of us in our daily lives… (I would call that factor the collective consciousness of Us and the way we are connected on so many subtle levels.) And the experience with John of God (see category: John of God) claims mention as the most recent event to recalibrate my world.
Call it what you will, define it as you may… I am shifting internally. For the past few weeks, a free- floating sense of concurrent anxiety and excitement lives in my mind… Just like it did 25 years ago when I knew I was stepping out of one Life and wasn’t sure what I was stepping towards.
Today, I have two songs running through my mind: One by Yusef Islam – God is Light, God is the Light… and one by Black Eyed Peas – I’ve Got a Feeling… that today’s gonna be a good, good day. Both of them playing melodies next to each other.
I can feel it. I am right on the brink of a new paradigm, stepping through the mysterious free-floating unknown and onto a platform that beckons me with an intangible – yet melodic – call, creating a background sound through my day. What a glorious adventure Life is! I am abiding appreciation and awe for design of it… so huge I can only glimpse whisps and fast-moving insights.
I’m twirling in the wonder of it all! A vortex, always on the brink of awakening into more deLight.
I love you. Thank you.
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