personal growth – Page 5 – Laughing Medicine Woman

March 2, 2011March 3, 2011

Diving Deep Into All I Am – Law of Attraction Spans All Time

The deeper I go within, the more benefit I find in replacing the past with Love.

The more I disengage with the circumstance of my Life as the cause of how I feel, the more I discover repeating patterns in the stories I use to explain my feelings. I find that the “justified offense” I’ve taken from someone in my current circle is exactly the same feeling I felt many years ago in a similar situation. And, perhaps even more relevant, when I remove both people from the story I am left with the same sadness. The only constant is me.

“My cup of joy is carved deep by sorrow.” Continue reading “Diving Deep Into All I Am – Law of Attraction Spans All Time”

February 28, 2011March 1, 2011

Diabetes – An Expert Teacher: part 3; the tarbaby called guilt

I found relief for the immediate internal conflicts between what I knew I ‘should’ do to manage Diabetes and what my emotional urgings demanded by refusing to test blood sugar levels. To my mind at the time, it was a simple and elegant strategy. Since my friends didn’t know enough to question the absence of this step in my regimen, it seemed – along with the flawed logic that created it – a perfect solution that allowed me the ability to socialize and eat more like ‘normal people.’ Without realizing it, I had placed one hand firmly into the the Tar Baby.

Br’er Rabbit from Songs of the South made the Tar Baby – a mound of sticky tar shaped to look like a person – famous when he sought to teach it a lesson by slapping, hitting, and kicking it.. to no avail. Because not only did the Tar Baby not feel anything, but everything Br’er Rabbit threw at the mound of tar, stuck to it – Leaving our friend, the rabbit, unable to free himself from his flawed solution.

For me, the sticky trap was more subtle. Continue reading “Diabetes – An Expert Teacher: part 3; the tarbaby called guilt”

February 24, 2011February 27, 2011

Diabetes – An Expert Teacher: Part 2; the slippery slope

The mind can be a tricky terrain to navigate.

As my dedication to following ‘the perfect Diabetic plan’ faltered, I struggled. The voice of Science played in one of corner of my mind with hard facts; the cause and effect of high blood sugars and low blood sugars. The melody was fearful and reinforced a hum of anxiety on the periphery of my consciousness. Over it, however, what played louder and stronger in my awareness was a need for relief. I needed friends; I needed to eat a treat; I needed to feel normal.

My mind, in its attempt to find a path through the clashing sounds these contradicting thoughts and feelings made, came up with a simple – albeit flawed – solution: Stop testing blood sugar. Continue reading “Diabetes – An Expert Teacher: Part 2; the slippery slope”

February 23, 2011February 26, 2011

Diabetes – An Expert Teacher

A friend told me recently that I am a model Diabetic. We were traveling together, and – as she watched me testing my blood sugar and injecting insulin before every meal; as she observed me carefully selecting foods and reading ingredient labels to maintain a sugar free diet – she noted that I was the exception to her experience with others in her life who lived with Diabetes.

I thought about that.

It was 28 years ago that I was diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes and told I would forever require insulin injections, would forever live with the range of complications that high blood sugar creates, and would forever have to be ‘on a diet’… until I died – probably from one of the Diabetic complications. In the next breath, the doctor told me I would get used to the changes in my life, and it would come to be as easy as brushing my teeth. I wasn’t all that great at oral hygiene then, and his metaphor was lost on me. To me, it was a pretty big deal. Continue reading “Diabetes – An Expert Teacher”

February 16, 2011February 22, 2011

John of God – Morning of Psychic Surgery Day

My time for psychic surgery was in the afternoon session so I had choices for the morning. I could join the first Current Room again; I could schedule more Crystal Baths; or I could approach John of God with another set of questions.

Because my blood sugar dropped to the low 40’s during the night, I eliminated the Current Room because I didn’t want to potentially further stress my body before psychic surgery. As I reflected between the Crystal Bed and visiting John of God again, I realized I did have a couple of strong and specific desires with which I would welcome help: Continue reading “John of God – Morning of Psychic Surgery Day”

February 12, 2011February 28, 2011

John of God – Meeting Our Guide

When we decided to make the trek to Brazil and visit John of God’s Casa, I considered the possibility of using a guide. But not for very long. Having led meditation groups around the world, I felt downright confident in my ability to navigate the process. My friend felt differently, though, and she set us up with Immanuel (www.meetjohnofgod.com) who lives in Abadiania.

We met for dinner on our first day. First, he described his story – how he came to John of God six years ago suffering from a seizure disorder that doctors prescribed anti-pyschotic drugs to treat. Continue reading “John of God – Meeting Our Guide”

February 3, 2011March 3, 2011

Faith in the Future – Optimism in Politics

politics, optimism, faith, law of attraction

What a gift the future is! Indeed, it’s the present wrapped in tantalizing papers and bows awaiting the perfect moment of ‘presentation’.

The future beckons. We are like the flowers unfurling in the NOW of this moment while we ever turn towards the sun. The future is like the sun, attracting us towards it with the promise of nourishing light.

And, still, there is the paradox. There is always some amount of faith required to enjoy the promises of the future. The flower must continue to evolve through the night, trusting the warmth of the sun to reappear.

Continue reading “Faith in the Future – Optimism in Politics”

December 4, 2010March 3, 2011

Today, I Got It – How Law of Attraction Works

Today, I got it!

Everyday, we live the day-to-day habits of our lives; making decisions, experiencing contrasts, and sending out rockets of desire to help refine our future decisions. It almost seems to happen in the background – evaluation, judgement, preference, desire for more or different experiences – as we focus on the daily activities that define our personalities. Almost un-noticeable like chatter in a restaurant.

This continual flow of desires gather together, attracted to each other. Connected with each other, they abide in a vibrational state of fulfillment; attaching to each other through resonant feelings like elements attach to become molecules. Growing. Building in a vortex of energies… Until the feeling of the fulfilled desires hits a critical mass and coalesces like hydrogen and oxygen coalesce to become water… a new state of being. The accumulated feelings of desires fulfilled changes us into expanded versions of ourselves. Continue reading “Today, I Got It – How Law of Attraction Works”

November 20, 2010March 5, 2011

Strongest of the Strong – Awakening

There is a shift in the air. Can you feel it? I do.

Many religions and cultures have a story about this time and the changes that are imminent. I don’t know which ones are true. I only know what I feel – with my senses and my Soul. I see it like a shimmer in the air around me; the trees vibrate with aliveness. I hear the Voice within with more clarity and depth. I touch from a distance now… before my skin makes contact, I am “in” contact. My Soul rejoices, calling me in jubilant tones to continue.. continue.

The stories I hear tell me of Earth changes and hard times and many deaths for ‘unbelievers’. The stories attempt to describe the undescribe-able: a world changed beyond what has ever been before. The stories say to prepare; to gather resources and be ready to live without modern convenience.

The stories evoke fear.

But all that I experience evokes vitality and awakening. Continue reading “Strongest of the Strong – Awakening”

November 15, 2010March 6, 2011

It’s a Paradox – Law of Attraction

“On the brink”. I’ve used that phrase before to describe the experience of being so close to a manifestation I can smell and taste it. It’s a feeling of eagerness and anticipation that excites me to the core of my Being, and I continually find new desires to flow my focus towards so that I can feel it again and again. It’s like the feeling of planning an adventure, and beginning the plans for a new adventure on the plane ride home from the last one. That’s how I roll.

Sometimes, I realize I’m juggling so many eager anticipations that I start to feel a little overwhelmed or anxious that one may fall short. Continue reading “It’s a Paradox – Law of Attraction”