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Consumed By The Dragon – Awakening

Itransformation, awakening dreamed.  I dreamed I was eaten by a dragon.

In the dream, I felt no fear – no trepidation of jagged teeth or painful death.  Only curiosity.  The dragon was HUGE, her head the size of a small house, her body could have been an apartment complex.  When she lowered her snout to the ground and opened her maw wide, I felt the heat and smelled the sulphur exuding with her breath.

It was a dream, though, and I was only more curious.  I stepped tentatively into the cavern that was her mouth.  I felt the soft give of her tongue under my feet… and watched myself dissolve — body vaporized into billions of tiny fragments.  Still conscious, yet nowhere could I find me.

Dreaming.  Dreaming in a deep, dark landscape filled with sparkling lights, I felt the beating heart of the dragon pulsing me through her body.  I sensed an immense mind – like a sky with no end – and touched it, joining in the dream with a vast intelligence that stretched my awareness to new perspectives I would never have considered within the mind of my own species.  Perspectives I could barely comprehend. Perspectives that turned me inside out of the nowhere I could find me.

Timeless in a dream that may have been a brief moment or eternal forever, consciousness released the “I” as all the particles of what was “me” flowed into ‘we-ness’ with her…

Until she pooped me out.  She pooped me out.  I was dreaming, right?  And there “I” stood again.  No longer the “me” who had been consumed – I was newly configured; somehow reshaped and blended anew with traces of Dragon vibrating through my being.  Transformed into dragon poop.

I dreamed.

And now, I wonder… what is dreaming?  And…when am I awake?  Is this Awakening? Continue reading “Consumed By The Dragon – Awakening”

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The Paradox of Trust – Awakening

awakening, transformation, individuationA recipe for transformation without trust as one of the ingredients is doomed in much the same way a recipe for fluffy pancakes without baking powder as an ingredient is bound for failure.  Baking powder is necessary for the chemical reaction that infuses the batter with fluffifying air bubbles.  In a similar manner, trust must be present for the alchemy of transformation to ignite.

If only trust were as easy to procure as a box of baking soda, right?  If only we understood the components of trust well enough to produce it at whim and infuse our experience with trust as easily as we mix baking powder into a batter – trust in the Will to Good, trust in our innate ability to listen inwardly and make effective decisions, trust in the desired outcomes we are not yet able to see in the world around us. Continue reading “The Paradox of Trust – Awakening”

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Sharing Shame Away – Awakening

awakeningIt’s a residual grime – Shame.  Sticky and heavy like a combination of quicksand and tar, laying like a film over our memories and experiences.  I have yet to meet anyone who doesn’t know what I’m talking about, though I have come across many who pretend they bear no burden of shame.

And I know they do.  We all do.  Every one of us — at some point — knows the experience of feeling bad about something we’ve done or some aspect of how we look or who we are.  It may be a slight embarrassment about a pimple or a regret for having spoken harshly in a moment of distress.  It could be a habit or an inability to follow through on intentions or goals.  No matter how small or insignificant in the moment, it is shame… and it accumulates in the psyche. Continue reading “Sharing Shame Away – Awakening”

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The Awakening Mystery – What’s Going On?

awakening, evolutionThe end came and went… a few times I think… the “big” one, though, was almost three months ago.  The new beginning?  How can we tell when it started?

Almost a season has turned.  I observe social media and read the blogs and watch the video clips sharing the variety of perceptions of what happened/is happening.  Some people expected or hoped for a transformation on December 22nd, 2012 that would rock the socks off of current norms and cultures, evoking a mass awakening of spiritual consciousness.  Some felt deflated when it seemed as though nothing really changed.  Some foretold of a transition that would take time and impact our lives in unique and unexpected ways.  Some called it just another New Age or religious hoax.

For me, it has been an internal experience. Continue reading “The Awakening Mystery – What’s Going On?”

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Visceral Faith – A New Awakening

John of God, healing, spirtual surgery, healingWhen I went, recently, to Casa Dom Inacio to open myself deeper and wider to currents of awakening.  I asked, in my first audience with Medium Joao, for a blending of my personality with my soul. (see: Day 3 Is A Spiritual Surgery Day)  While I wasn’t sure what that would mean or look like in day-to-day living…  I mean, how would I “know” what to expect?… it just felt right to request it at this point in my evolution.

Now — in hindsight — it is clear to me just how the request was answered.  Let me describe it as one of the stories of my life… Continue reading “Visceral Faith – A New Awakening”

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John of God Trip 5 – Final Day

law of attraction, visualization, creative power, memoryIt is mid afternoon, and we have Frutti’s all to ourselves.  The music is serene.  The chai is tasty, and the activity on the street outside is quiet as the occasional person strolls by in the lazy, summer heat.  Soon, a parade of people in white will flow from the Casa — another week complete — and Frutti’s will fill with social activity, people sharing their experiences and stories.  It is everything about Abadiania that I love.

For now, though, it is me with the quiet to reflect upon our experience this trip.

Alan had another spontaneous healing (of course; >)  A chronic shoulder issue since a mountain bike riding accident about a decade ago – healed.  Better than ever.  He has a reputation to live up to, he reminded me…  a man who “does the work.”

For me, this time with John of God and the entities is profound. Continue reading “John of God Trip 5 – Final Day”

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John of God Trip 5 – Second Spiritual Surgery

Spiritual awakening, John of GodI arrived to the meeting room at the Casa with my questions for John of God in hand, quiet in my mind and prepared to relax into the Casa flow until my line was called.  The first Casa day in 2013.  The first surprise came when the Casa volunteer called for people scheduled for spiritual surgery…  and no one came.

Then there was a long wait — for about an hour — before another line was called.  The people continued to meditate in the current rooms, and one of the volunteers continued to give his inspirational talk.  Just no lines called… Continue reading “John of God Trip 5 – Second Spiritual Surgery”

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John of God Trip 5 – Days 4 and 5

ArrivingAbadiania 026Hotel San Raphael seems to be the social hotspot during the holiday season…  when Frutti’s is closed.  Last night, there was a wedding party for the group that did their ceremony at the Casa Dom Inacio Thursday morning.  We had live music in the courtyard and lots joyful sounds.  Every meal, in fact, is raucous with laughter, and people come from all over town to eat at the only open “restaurant” available.

I’m not exactly sure how all these fun times fit into the idea of spiritual comtemplation, but nobody seems to concerned about it. Continue reading “John of God Trip 5 – Days 4 and 5”

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John of God Trip 5 – Arrival and First Day

John of GodThunder is roiling through the sky…  Late December, and it’s summer in Abadiania, Brazil.  Time for the rainy season interspersed with bright sunshine.  Life is verdant green here right now.  We arrived December 25th, 2012 to a quiet town.  Most everything – except for The Casa and our pousada – is closed.  Still, there seem to be quite a few people here…  we watched several other groups arrive on our plane.

A moment here to establish context… Continue reading “John of God Trip 5 – Arrival and First Day”

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Abadiania On The Horizon – John of God

Crystal Bed, John of God, Casa Dom InacioThe culmination of a long adventure is on the horizon. During my first visit to Casa Dom Inacio and John of God in February, 2011, I felt a strong sense that I would experience a series of five visits before the end of 2012 to complete the process I was beginning during that trip.  Now, it’s four trips later as the energies build for the final visit in this series at the end of December, 2012.

I look back over the last two years, and I stand in wonder at the all the ways my life changed.  Continue reading “Abadiania On The Horizon – John of God”