How cool would that be? Infinite bliss–heaven on earth, right? All good things in all ways throughout all time. I know that’s what I thought I was aspiring toward thirty some years ago when I was first introduced to the idea that I could create the experiences I wanted by focusing my mind to think the “right” thoughts.
And I was diligent. Dedicated. I wrote affirmations daily. I studied and researched the new age thought movement with passion. I visualized. I practiced care with the words I chose to speak. I even wrote my graduate thesis on how perception influences experience. I was a bona fide expert on the topic…but it didn’t stop my car (with me in it) from being rear-ended on an icy freeway that resulted in a head-on collision with a concrete wall the same week I submitted that thesis. All of those affirmations and all of that research didn’t stop me from developing a head injury and type 1 diabetes because of that car crash.
Still, that accident didn’t change my belief that–if I could alter circumstances with the power of my mind–I could live in a state of well-being and happiness that would create changeless perfection. Rather, my beliefs led me down a path of thinking I must have created the accident. That’s the other side of the logic in believing that I can create heaven on earth with my thoughts. And the belief that I created bad things happening to me while I was trying to create good things…well, that belief led me through years of attempting to figure out how to align myself with all good things even as I lived with sucky things (aka type 1 diabetes) and felt powerless to change them (aka type 1 diabetes.) Continue reading
Let’s talk science for a moment. Proven fact: every emotion solicits hormones and neurotransmitters to evoke a host of chemical actions. The blood fills with these “chemical feelings” and every cell in the body “reads” the chemical message to determine their course of action.
Of course, the cells cannot extrapolate one kind of fear from another. The chemicals don’t tell them whether a predatory animal is attacking or whether there isn’t enough money in the bank to cover the mortgage payment. The message is the same. On the level of biochemical interaction, so is the response in the body.
And it’s a good response. It’s kept our species alive through the ages. It’s an appropriate response to a life-threatening situation. However, when anxiety/fear becomes an emotional norm–when angst of one form or another is the steady stream of chemicals flowing through our blood to direct cellular activity–then our bodies never get the opportunity to restore and regenerate. Never feel safe to take care of their needs. Inevitably, dis-ease results. Continue reading
My new theme for all the writing here is: Come live in the rainbow with me, friends, and become the full spectrum light you are. And, as usual, it’s through my personal journey of becoming that I gather these words to share.
To catch everyone up:
I traveled to Casa de Dom Inacio seven times over the course of four years. When I made my prayer requests for the healing of physical conditions (type 1 diabetes, spinal injuries, and hepatitis C) before every spiritual intervention, I didn’t fully understand that what I would receive from the entities there would be emotional and spiritual healings (see: Reflections from John of God) rather than the immediate release from physical imbalances. OK…so that’s not exactly true–hepatitis C went into remission after the second visit, and my insulin requirements went down by half over the course of all the visits. It was, however, during the next to last visit to the Casa, when the entity, Dr. Augusto, told me to get lab work done (see: Final Day of Trip 6) that I began my journey of healing the physical body. Continue reading
Tell me what you want.
It’s been a few months since I put fingers to keyboard in the hope of communicating something fresh–something to inspire and activate your sense of wonder and wellbeing. I just reread my last article (Emerging Awakened) and–it’s true–I come new and “naked” and open. So, tell me what you want.
I am listening. These days, that’s most of what I “do.” I listen. To thoughts, to words, to the sound of silence, to the brilliance of others… And–in the listening–somewhere in the vastness that is MIND, dots connect into lines that become answers and understanding. From both directions. And the shapes–or blocks of thought and feeling–that emerge are woven into the weft of All I Am.
I would love to listen to you and discover where it leads. Tell me what you want. These days, that’s how my life works. Continue reading
All I Am embodies love and lives the multi-dimensional experience.
Deep and quiet. That’s what I am. While the world around me shops and bakes and prepares to celebrate, I go deep and quiet. Solstice approaches, and I abide.
I am coming to an end. The “me” that you’ve known for as long as you’ve known me… is coming to an end. This isn’t the first time I’ve changed characters in a movie. Not the first time my orientation from one moment to the next blinked into a new paradigm and transformed my “being” in the world. I spent two years living on the streets of Chicago and Toronto as a teen and returned to society reshaped. I lived through death in a head-on car collision and found myself back in this world reconfigured. I’ve survived more than a few health crises…and been transformed through them
It is the first time, though, that I am doing it softly–consciously–as one in the awakening process who chooses to claim “awakened.”
I am stepping out of old roles like old clothes. Feeling the loss of each memory in every well-worn item, yet recognizing the need to let go. Indeed, it’s been a year-long purge of my closet–layer by layer, my most recent identity stripped away. If I am to walk naked for awhile, so be it.
The shift so many of us anticipated in 2013 is coming for me now. I feel it. It is only days or breaths away. And I go deep and quiet in preparation.
Crystals mined from the lode underneath Casa de Dom Inacio and blessed by the entities
It’s that time… the last day of our spiritual adventure with John of God and Casa de Dom Inacio. Here we sit, in Frutti’s, sipping our cool drinks on a “96 degrees in the shade” day and letting the culmination of the journey integrate.
Yesterday morning, I went to the Casa de Dom Inacio prepared to stand in the line that would allow me the opportunity to thank John of God and the entity as well as hear from the entity what my next steps would be. I thought I knew all of the possibilities that could happen…but I was surprised. Medium Joao, incorporating Dr. Augusto, came into the front meeting room (where we wait for our line to be called) to do several physical interventions. After he finished, he talked to several people (in Portuguese so I don’t have a clue what was said…just that one of the people he engaged was in tears by the time they were done) Then he looked at me and spoke to the volunteer next to me. The volunteer came directly to me and guided me into the group waiting for a spiritual intervention. Continue reading
What day is it? I think I may have lost track 😛 Wednesday morning, I went in for another spiritual intervention and spent the next twenty four hours in a “floaty” trance-like state. In between spaces where there was no thought, I had a couple of very interesting experiences.
First, I met my “little Bee” as she calls herself…she is part of me. She is teensy and precocious and very faery-like. Undertones in interactions “hurt” her, and she often doesn’t feel safe in this world. She took me through a series of interactions and showed me what it would have looked like if I had taken care of her and “spoken up” to clear the field of energetic undertones during different events in my life. With each acknowledgement on my part, I felt a wave of light, pulsing… energy stream through my body…
2014 has been a year of many endings for relationships in my life–some that were easy to acknowledge as no longer aligned with how I Am and am becoming and some that broke my heart even as I knew I had to let go. Later in the spiritual intervention process, this series of relationships cruised through my awareness–one right after the next. With each person, I cleared the field using ho’oponopono (see: Ho’oponopono Made Simple) and found the point of gratitude for that person. At the end of the “parade of people departed,” I heard a voice in mind say, “Be the narrator.” Continue reading
It’s Tuesday, and we have been here one week. Today, I complete the spiritual intervention process that began last Wednesday morning. That’s right–even though the seclusion ended after twenty four hours, the intervention continues for a full week. Then, on the seventh night (tonight,) I will make a prayer before going to sleep–in a white nightie–and the entity will complete the process. In the morning, I’ll drink a glass of the blessed water that will have been “charged” by the entity during the night.
Tomorrow I would typically go through the Revision line–eight days after spiritual intervention or first day returning to Casa de Dom Inacio. In the revision line, we go before John of God to determine if there is anything further needed to complete the spiritual intervention from the past week. However, these days folks in the revision line are given the option of volunteering for another spiritual intervention… guess what I’m going to do? Continue reading
Sundays are quiet in Abadiania. Many leave after the last session on Friday or Saturday to catch their flight back to where ever in the world they reside. Locals, brought in large tour buses during the week, are long gone as well after the Friday afternoon session ends. Abadiania, in other words, is a sleepy village on Sunday…and Sunday is a great day to go to the Sacred Waterfall 😉
Located “down the dirt road” from the Casa de Dom Inacio, the Sacred Waterfall is known for spontaneous healings that occur under its very, very cold current–a place where entities like to “chill” and offer assistance to those of us that get permission from John of God to make the trek. Continue reading
Where to start? How about: Bless this day 😀
Yesterday was the final day of the Casa series for the week. Alan was just coming out from his seclusion from a spiritual intervention so we did crystal beds (“banhos de cristal”) in the morning and joined the Current (“Corrente”) room to meditate during the afternoon session. The crystal bed for me was a blissed trance state lasting for forty minutes. No words–just deeply relaxed in a total sense of well-being. Sweet, right?
The Current room was potent for both Alan and myself…a continuation, I intuit, of our spiritual interventions. Continue reading